Syazzinator

1716 days with you. Who would've thought we got this far? I've been getting a lot of questions lately. Of course, It didn't make me too happy being asked. You know, That obligatory 20-something question. Let's be honest, Whoever is certain about their future? I'm learning to be okay with it. I have to be reminded, Not everything has to be a competition. Baby steps. We'll get there eventually right?

When was the last time I hear certainty in your voice? "You deserve someone better" I heard you say. It felt strange Staring at you With the same affection. When was the last time You looked at me And felt glad? When was the last time You thought of me And felt love? I managed With all my might, "Maybe."

You're a secret I kept Far from truth. I was afraid, For I fell deeper, Unintended. They say with it, Comes a price. But I was a better liar; I did not heed. Heartbreak after heartbreak I begin to realize Even when you made him the world You cant make someone love you.

Your heartbeat fluttered The moment I placed my head On your chest It tickles, You said. I hear your hearty laugh, Those short breaths in between, Struggling to keep still. Thank you, I breathed. We laid still on the field, In the gentle blowing breeze. From the corners of my eyes, I watched you carve a smile.

There lived this boy In her heart, He speaks of freedom He speaks of courage As she looks at him With only so much love He was kind He was loved And he too, Had returned it "Set me free" He said one day There lived this boy In her heart, She felt it stopped As he goes away.

"Hey I really like you." Inside her, It felt like spring. The flowers blossomed, The petals pink. Except, She heard him say it To someone else.

I once wrote a book. In those pages, I wrote about hope I wrote about you. I found it again Buried in dusts After years of hiding. I remember now. In those pages, I wrote about your eyes I wrote about your lips. It was your touch I long for Above all. If again, I find myself Knocking on your door Will you let me in?

I'm the girl You held You comfort You mend Still I pushed A little more Until you find yourself In the corner I'm sorry I didn't mean to But you cant fix What's already broken I do I do love you Sometimes More than I Will you let me stay? In your embrace Be it bright or gloomy day Because in your arms That's where I let myself sink in And you? You're my anchor.

One day You'll miss the way he looked at you When he walks ahead, turns back And ask, "Aren't you coming?" You smiled and took his hand, Inside you knew "He would never let go." For a while you insisted. Smiles and laughter, Shouts and cries; You took what was less of him, You took all of it. And in that moment He was all of you. He went, After a while Somewhere between those cries You cannot remember. The wound in you Heals but in time Tearing all that's left of you. It was that moment You realized, You lost yourself.